Paranoid Much

Yesterday was yet another adventure to the labor and delivery triage. I had used the restroom and something just didn't seem right down there ( I will spare you the details). When I called my OB they suggested I go in to L&D to get checked out because the thing I noticed could either be my mucus plug (gross I know... sorry) or it could be an infection. So I called Ken and he came home. I was working at the time so we returned the little boy to his momma and off we went. Well it was nothing. After 3 hours of being in the triage I was released to go home with a bill of good health. Baby looks amazing, they checked his fluid levels and he's floating around in just the right amount. Monitored him, his heart beat is amazing and they say he seems to be a very happy healthy baby. They also checked my cervix and it is doing nothing to prepare for him yet. Which is totally normal at this point. Baby is in a vertex position (head down) which is good. But that is the only sign he is preparing to come.

I don't know why I am so paranoid about every little thing. I know it can be a good thing but I still feel stupid sometimes. I just feel like it took us 2+ years to get here and now that I have an amazing husband, we are financially more stable than we have ever been, we both have jobs we love, and we have our little man so close to being here something is going to go wrong. I was probably even more paranoid something was going to happen yesterday because it was the same exact day Ken's mom passed away 3 years ago. Is everyone this paranoid the first time around or is it just me?